Raw (April 6, 2016)

Once more

The taps have

Been turned on

After several years

Of being left

In the "off" position.

As the memories

Swirl around

In my mind.

Previously

The overage

Has been spilling

Over the dam's edge

I had erected

Mentally.

Threatening

To collapse

From external pressure.

As it did

On August 14, 2007

In suffering 

A 26 hour

Panic attack.

After riding

The subway

In the morning

Rush hour.

Feeling a surge

Of those toxic memories

From my childhood

Once more.

Slipping

Through barriers

Built since then.

As I try

To find relief

In opening

The sluice gate

Under healing guidance.

Knowing

This pent-up

And unprocessed anger

Needs release.

For real healing

Of body and soul

To occur.

Therisa © 2016

Author's note: Today (April 6, 2016), I had my first counselling session, with my new therapist. Honestly, I have shared memories, with him, in that I haven't told anyone else, about, since they have happened to me. Specifically, going into the details, how I felt, at the time. The next session is, for April 20th, then the first Wednesday, in May.