Facing A Truth (May 20, 2016)

Don't fully understand

Why I'm crying

Right now

In a public place.

As

A slow stream

Of tears

Stain my face.

And please

The next moron

Who says:

"It's because

Of the hormones

I'm taking."

Gets

A good swift kick

To their family jewels.

As if

Having estrogen flowing

In my body

Will radically change

My emotions.

Honey

Have a newsflash

For you.

Prior

To starting estrogen

My soulscape was

An emotional wasteland

Of repressed emotions.

Threatening

To fully consume

My body and soul

In a toxic maelstrom

Of negativity.

Just hold

The shiny little

Estrogen pill

In my hand.

Was enough

To give myself

Permission

To be

My true self.

Emotionally

And physically.

Something

You'll never understand

No matter.

Therisa © 2016

Author's note: Early on, during my transitioning, I have been asked, several times, how I felt emotional, since starting estrogen, to which, I told them, the true. Emotionally, I'm repressing my emotions, less than I was, as a male. Otherwise, I haven't noticed any difference, except my bouts of depression, don't seem, as deep as, before starting estrogen, more prolong, in duration.