A Day of Blessing (July 14, 2016)

Like a bolt

Of lightening

Out of the blue.

It happened

To me.

Never expecting

To find support

Like I did

Today.

But

Given the darkness

I have been travelling

For the past month.

I accept this

As a blessing

From the Goddess

Herself.

Gracing me

With light

At a dark moment.

Someone

Who I know

Casually

From the local library.

Mistakenly 

He thought

I was Intersex.

Instead of

A transsexual

(Male to Female),.

Although

We do face

Many similar battles

In our struggles

For acceptance.

Think

My gentle explaining

That Intersex used

To be known 

As Hematite 

Helped out.

As we parted

He shook my hand

And told me:

"Never let them

Stop you

In your dream".

As I thanked him

Before parting

Our ways.

A huge reversal

Of what normally

Happens

To a trans-person.

One

Am grateful for

Given the stressful day

It has been

For me.

Therisa © 2016

Author's note: On July 13th, my apartment was sprayed for cockroaches, and I was forced to relocate the cats, for least 6 hours, in another part of my apartment building. Not to mention, all of the prep work that needed to done, to get my apartment ready, which could only happen, in the final hours, before the spraying was scheduled, to happened. Throughout all of this, the cats were real troopers, and helped to ease some of the stress, I was experiencing, from this departure of my normal routine.

A Side Trip Through Hell (March 6, 2016)

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It's been 9 years

Since

I have quit

My last job

In utter frustration.

As

I found myself

Working in

An increasingly

Hostile environment.

With little

To no support

From management.

Know

I could have taken them

To the Labour Board

Or the Human Rights Commission

Over their actions.

But

Fuck'em

I needed out

Of there.

For the sake

Of my health

(Mentally

And physically).

Working

A minimum week

Of 50+ hours

Over 5 days.

On top of

A daily commute

Of a 3 hour

Round trip.

Never mind

My asking

To work

An 8 hour shift

Every fortnightl.

To attend

A support group

In Toronto.

Was like

Trying to remove teeth

From someone

Who has none.

As I tried

To transition

In this working Hell.

Looking back

Am better off

With less money

And stress.

As I take it

Slow

But constant steps

In my holistic healing.

Therisa © 2016

Author's note: At the time, I was working for a small company located near, Pearson International Airport, in Mississauga, Ontario. When, I did quit, I tossed all of the inbound receipts, into the air, like Mary Tyler Moore did, with her hat, at the beginning, of her 1970s show. Not caring, where they landed.

Standing Before, The Portal Of Past, Present And Future (February 13, 2016)

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Before me

Stands

An open window

To my past

And future.

One

I had walked away

Fourteen years ago

On my own.

In hating

Whom I was.

But

Unable to voice

This inner truth

With anyone.

Family

Or friends.

Wanting

To rebuild

These bridges.

I have left

To rot

Over time.

Scared

By doing so

Will expose myself

To rejection

And hate.

For few know

The journey

I have taken

Since.

Do I take

This risk

And climb

Through this window?

Or

Slam it shut

Destroying all ties

To my extended family

And the past.

A question

I wrestle with

As both sides argue

Within my mind.

Against

The rising tide

Of anxiety.

Indecision

Wracks my brain

And soul.

While

Choking back

A nervous sigh

As I write this.

Therisa © 2016

Author's note: Earlier, this afternoon, I searched the name of one of my 26 paternal cousins, who I haven't seen, since June 2002, at a family reunion, marking the family's 50th year, of immigrating to Canada, from The Nederland. Of all of my cousins, he is, the one that I feel, the most comfortable around. growing up, being close, in age.  I know, he's support of LGBT+ rights, which makes my decision, a tad bit easier, but I'm not sure, if I am ready, to share myself, with him.