I fell in love
With musicals.
Often singing
Certain songs
From my favourites
The classics
Of this art form.
Like “America” or “Tonight”
From Westside Story
To “I’m Going To Wash That Man,
Right Out Of My Hair”
From South Pacific.
I know I know
My Hetero Male Club membership
Is seriously endanger
Of being revoked.
And yes
I was kicked out.
My butt
Still has the imprint
Of the shoe
That booted me.
Bet these songs
Spoke to me
In a way
I can’t describe.
Found myself
Sighing and laughing
With female lead
Throughout the movie.
Movies like
The Star Wars
Or the Rocky franchises
Left me
Feeling blah.
Learning the hard way
Keeping quiet
About musicals.
Males
Who love musicals
Society views
As homosexual.
And I’m not
A gay male.
Rather
A lesbian trapped
In this male body
(Having realizing
My true form).
Thank you
Very much.
Funny
It all started
With a babysister
Playing Grease soundtrack
On dad’s turntable.
Therisa © 2018
Author’s Note: Am still, in recovery mode, after last weekend emotional PTSD flashback
with anxiety/panic attacks. Honestly, I just want to hide and let the tears flow, into nearby
Lake Ontario. Even this poem, semi-upbeat, is triggering me, as I work to finish this note.
To distract myself, I have compiled a list of movies, for various reasons, mean something to
me, personal. Please forgive me, as I, only list these movies, today. Am, in the beginning of
an emotional breakdown and just want to hide. These movies are listed, in no particular
order or reason. This is a faction of the movies that I would love to share.
The Philadelphia Story (1940): Cary Grant, Katharine Hepburn, and Jimmy Stewart.
The basis for the musical, High Society, starring Bing Crosby.
Bringing Up Baby (1938): Cary Grant and Katharine Hepburn. A screwball comedy
deemed a failure, but now viewed, as a classic.
Little Women (1933): Katharine Hepburn, Joan Bennett, and Paul Lukas. Based upon
Louisa May Alcott’s book, of the same name.
Adam’s Rib (1949): Spencer Tracy, Katharine Hepburn and Judy Holiday. Start of
the 25 year relationship between Tracy and Hepburn, on and offscreen for the two
of them.
A Night At The Opera (1935): The first Marx Brothers movie without Zippo.
Their best movie made.
Dr Zhivago (1965): Directed by David Lean. With Omar Sharif, Julie Christie, Geraldine
Chaplin, Rod Steiger. Based on the Boris Pasternak’s novel of the same time title. The
film ruin the novel and accompanying original poetry, Pasternak wrote.
How Green Was My Valley? (1941): Based on the fictional novel, written by Richard
Llewellyn. Starring Walter Pidgeon, Maureen O'Hara, and Anna Lee. Having read
the novel and seen the movie several time, it’s a faithful adaptation. Come prepare
with a box or two of tissues for tears.
Mrs Miniver (1942): Starring Greer Garson, Walter Pidgeon, and Teresa Wright. A
tearjerker about the early months of WWII, for a British family. Another box or two,
of tissues will be needed here.
Westside Story (1961): Directed by Jerome Robbins and Robert Wise. Starring
Rita Moreno, Natalie Wood, George Chakiris, and Richard Beymer. Shakespeare’s
play, Romeo and Juliet is updated and set in New York City. What I love about this
movie, is the songs and dances don’t feel forced to the viewer, and are totally
memorable years later.
