My biological clock
Was still-born
At time
Of conception.
Never
Able to experience
What it means
To be fully female.
In all aspect
Of life.
Only
An approximation
At a surgical best
By a scalpel.
Leaving me
Neither
Male nor female
As a result.
Rather
A third gender
Straddling
The gender divide.
In fuelling
My unanswered yearning
To give birth
And hold
Within my arms
My own child.
No amount
Of counselling
Or river of tears
Can change this.
Thus
Haunting me
To the grave.
Therisa © 2016Author's notes: Unlike the early years of SRS, the current version, doesn't include, the transplantation of the female reproductive system, into a trans-woman. In one way, sparing the horrors that the earlier SRS recipients had to face, with organ rejection and the numerous surgeries, as a result. But, I wonder, given the advances, in stem cell research, if it's not possible to do this, without the worry of organ rejection and the need to take medication for the rest of our lives, as a result of these advances. For myself, it's too late, and I know it.
