Why my eyes
Are tearing up
Right now.
As I feel
The tears
Begging for release.
Before
Anyone suggests
It's because
Of my hormone levels.
You must know
I haven't been taking
Any estrogen
(In any form)
For the past 2 years.
Even though
My estrogen levels
Are totally female
On my last test
In late April.
My baseline test
Described me
As a teenager
Having a period.
(Despite
The reality
Of having
A thirty-something
Body.)
I have never asked
For a genetic test
To prove
Whether or not
I'm Intersex.
Of course
The $1 000 cost
(At the time)
For the genetic test.
I would pay
If the test
Came back
As male.
May have
Something
To do
With my decision.
Still
I know
My soul is
Eternally female.
Regardless
Of what
Anybody
Tells me.
Therisa © 2016
Author's note: Sigh.
