Thursday, 12 May 2016

Birthday Wishes, For A Ghost (May 12, 2016)

Hello
And happy birthday
Dad.

Wish
I could be
Sharing this
In person
With you.

And not
To your departed
Soul.

Who left us
Almost 16 years ago
On a November night.

Much has change
In the family
Since.

Not all
For the better.

A wall of silence
And distance
Has been built
To stop
The hurting
I have endured.

How I miss
Your protective presence
In my life.

In making
The biggest things
Appear small
And totally bearable.

In vanishing
Those ghosts
And daemons
That haunted me.

Pardon me
As your eldest daughter.

(Yes
Your eldest daughter
And not son).

Wipes away
A tear or two
From her eyes
Dad.

Wishing you
The warmest thoughts
On the anniversary
Of your birth date.

Therisa © 2016

Author's note: Today, would have been my dad's 80th birthday, if he hadn't die, on November 15, 1998, from a fatal heart attack, on November 13th. A day doesn't go by, which I find myself, missing his presence, in my life.

22 comments:

  1. This is so filled with love, and pain. There is such a strong "what if" hanging in the air. How life could have been different. The form of a letter suits the subject so well.

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    1. Thank you, Bjorn. I offer writing poetic letters, like this, to those, who have made an impact, upon my life.

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  2. It is certainly one of the great mysteries, why do the ones we love so much have to leave us...? If I was "queen of the world," I think I would have done some of the things a little different.

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    1. Universally, I think, everyone would agree with you, Annell. I know, I would.

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  3. Such a touching tribute in his loving memory.
    Big hugs to you.

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    1. Thank you, Sanaa. If it was possible, would sent you, a slice of cake, to celebrate his day.

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  4. So much love in this. And how you note...eldest daughter...
    I too miss my father everyday. He died in March of 30 years ago. It says much in the way you write of/to your father. I like you write on his birthday rather than the date of his death.

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    1. Thank you, Toni. I mark his death, as the day, I came true, to myself, as who I am. So, in a way, it's my second birthday.

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  5. Losing a father is very hard. Mine would have been 95 this coming Monday if he hadn't died at the age of 72 of emphysema. Dads can be our greatest protectors and champions. I'm sorry for your loss.

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  6. It seems today was an auspicious day for both you and him. I always love reading about sweet and loving relationships between parents and children. This was a loving tribute, thanks for sharing.

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  7. This is a very touching and moving tribute ~ I am blessed to have my folks still, though old and frail now ~

    Grace

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  8. It is wonderful that you had a good and protective father. Yes, you must miss him. This is a lovely tribute.

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  9. Wonderful tribute. I believe these words would make him proud.

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  10. I am so sorry for your loss. This is a touching letter to him.

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    1. Thank you, De, but his release from his chronic suffering of severe angina pain, is blessing, for him, and the family. In the end, he wasn't here, as his brain had died, during that last heart attack. It was his wish, to have all machines removed, in this situation, which we followed.

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  11. A poignant way to express your grief.

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  12. Loved your tribute. It's beautifully written.

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  13. Loved the poetic letter to your father. Inspires me to do one of my own. It's about time that I do. It's now six years since his passing and I was in tears yesterday about him.

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  14. Oh, this spoke to me so much. Being the eldest daughter of a departed dad too, I feel the love, the pain, the wistfulness here, as if it were my own. Thank you for sharing.

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  15. A sad and touching tribute. I don't think we ever stop missing our parents when they're gone.

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  16. This is a wonderful tribute. Your love comes falling out of these words. Somehow, I believe your father has seen this and his spirit comes round you each time someone reads your words here - and each time you think of him.

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  17. This is so heartfelt and pure. I'm sorry for your loss. My father passed in the month of November from a heart attack as well, many years ago..so this resonated with me.

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