Wednesday, 20 January 2016

The Mountain Of Life (January 20, 2016)



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It stands
Before me
Like K2
Or Mount Everest.

Taunting me
To assault
Its steep slopes.

My hands
Searching for
That elusive grip
To propel me
Upwards.

Having spent
What seems
Like an eternity
On this rocky outcrop.

Scared
To look down
Where I've climbed
Over the past decade.

Afraid
I'll lose my footing
As vertigo
Over takes me.

(My fear of heights
Is second
To that
Of needles.)

Having
Already fallen
Backwards.

Losing several meters
(And years)
As a result.

Forced
To restart
From the base
Up.

Without
The same margin
Of error.

I
Once
Had.

Knowing
My future health
And any possibility
Of SRS.

Hang
In the balance.

Regaining control
Over my Type II diabetes
And mental health.

As I retrace
My steps
Upon the rock cliff.

Hoping
Of reaching
My dream's summit.


Therisa © 2016


Author's note: Yesterday (January 19, 2016), I had an appointment, with my diabetic nurse and dietitian, at their downtown Toronto office, as part of the follow-up, to my starting a new med, just before Christmas, last year. At the time, my glucose reading were dangerously high, in the low to mid-20s mmol/L. In Canada, a healthy person, should readings between 4 and 6 mmol/L, during a blood test. A diabetic is considered, within acceptable levels, if they test, between 4 and 7 mmol/L, before eating or drinking any food. At two hours afterwards, it increases between 5 and 10 mmol/L, for diabetics.


Lucky me, I get to see my family doctor and have fasting blood work done, tomorrow morning. A task, I'm not looking forward to, in having, to go and see the vampires, in the lab. Sigh.



12 comments:

  1. I hope your veins are compliant! Many illnesses are like climbing mountains to be conquered I do hope you can get the results and stability you are hoping for.

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    1. Thank you, Old Egg, for your warmth and support, in this struggle. And yes, the vampires have an easy time, in finding a blood vessel to tap, into. Your words mean a lot, to me, at this moment. Thank you, very much.

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  2. You have an optimistic view I like. Good for you!

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    1. Thank you, James. Just wish, I was optimistic, as your comment states.

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  3. sometimes we need to take a few steps backward to move on with more strength to reach the dream's summit...nice lines...

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    1. Thank you, Sumana. Sadly, I have experienced more than my share of fallbacks. On February 5th, I'll learn, if I need to start injecting myself, with Insulin, when I next see my doctor.

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    1. Thank you, Sanaa. Just wish that things were better, for me, medically.

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  5. Life is a series of starting overs.....I hope the new media work. Diet is key. I have a friend who manages her levels with the diabetic diet. I really enjoyed reading your poem. I can relate!

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    1. I understand this, all too well, Sherry. Please forgive me, if I don't return the love, right away, as I facing issues that will radically change my life. Not sure, if I should say, in a positive or negative way, beyond the fact, I may have to start Insulin injection.

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  6. You will reach your dream summit.
    Don't let fear take over dream.
    go on...

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    1. Thank you, Gazal, it may be medical reasons that I can't achieve my dreams. Will find out, on February 5th, if this is, an end or a temporary setback.

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